Lord, be with me....

today is the day. things change. i change. a part that has always been with me will be removed....a hysterectomy. and i am as nervous as anything.
i am trying by best to trust that the Lord is with me, because the fact is, i know that He is. i need the peace and strength that only He can offer me.
it's kind of crazy to think that the one thing that carried, cradled, kept my babies warm for 8 1/2 months....is coming out! should i be emotional about this? i am.
i hemorrhaged when my son was born, and the fear still dwells sometimes that it could happen again! Lord, please don't let it happen again.
Lord, thank you for creating this body of mine....AS IS! i don't want to change what you designed me to have....i hope you know my heart.
thank you for the two most beautiful babies a mother could ask for! they are miracles, medically...and more importantly, they were created by Your Hand...and that is a miracle. so thankyou. knowing my anatomy, You still made it possible for me to bear two babies....and they made it full term....THANK YOU, LORD! You are nothing short of amazing!
You are my Saviour. You are my strength giver, and right now, could you flood me with some of that? i could use it. i could use Your truth fed to me...to nourish me. to carry me through the next several hours and the next several weeks of healing.
with "all that dwells within me", Lord, be with me.
i love You so much for doing so!
yours truly!